Being a Parent is Hard

It is kind of ironic that my last post was called "Happy Babies" because they are far from this at this current moment. Nate came home late on Friday and when he arrived and asked me about my day I told him "It was awful!" and went to my room for 10 minutes just to recharge. Maddy was grumpy all morning and would only calm down with quiet time alone in her room. Jachin pooped in his pants twice and Maddy peed through hers once. Jachin was all over the place and I did a normal routine of nursing Maddy for 5 minutes, running to get Jachin, nursing 5 minutes, getting Jachin, etc. I finally had to put Jachin in the high chair with toys just so I could finish nursing Maddy. It was rough!

Saturday - Went to IKEA, I felt like a super mom. I was walking around with Maddy strapped on the front of me, Jachin in the stroller being pushed by Nate, passing crackers to Jachin for snack, giving Maddy a cracker, all while looking at stuff to add to our apartment. Maddy napped in the wrap, which never happens and Jachin slept in the car. Sounds great but the moment we arrived at home we had screaming children. Both were totally exhausted.

Today - We have been going to an international fellowship here so we were heading out after an ok day. Maddy was a little grumpier earlier which was odd. We got the babies settled into their carriers and covered them up from the rain with an umbrella and poncho. As we were getting ready to wake them up Nate asked if I was sure we should go in the rain and I assured him everything would be ok....famous last words...We got everyone outside and were waiting for a taxi, which took forever. We finally got to the first stoplight and Maddy threw up all over me. We then had to tell the taxi driver to turn around and go back because our child was sick. We headed back to the house, jumped in the bathtub, heated up dinner and fits began again. Jachin was super tired (because he chose not to nap) and Maddy was grumpy. We had some cuddle time with Jachin as we put Maddy down for a short nap. That was sweet! Maddy got up for her final feeding and Jachin was falling asleep on Nate. Maddy is down and then Jachin starts screaming from his room. As I am putting Maddy down for bed Nate is trying to appease Jachin.

That leads me to this point. I am exhausted from having two children, both quite grumpy this weekend, desperately needing some time with my hubby and now our stupi VPN that Nate stayed up super late trying to fix is now messing up again. I feel so defeated. Where was my weekend of rest? I am tired of changing diapers and hearing babies cry. I need time away but I realize that this will be very rare. When we just had Maddy going away for a time was fairly simple but now it seems virtually impossible. Maddy sometimes goes through screaming fits and we come back having the babysitter inform us that Maddy has yelled for half an hour (not upset mind you just wanting to yell). Then we add Jachin who wants to move and can’t understand the concept of “no”. All is crazy, I am going crazy. I need sleep. I don’t really know what I need. I knew parenting was hard but this weekend has been awful! Hope that better days are around the corner...