Maddy - 1 month

Maddy is now one month. It is bizarre to think that she wasn't even supposed to be here till May 28th and she's already 1 month old. Things I have learned:

1. That babies are not by the book. I read so many books and have tried to do a schedule so perfectly for Maddy but have become frustrated with myself and then realized that she will not fit perfectly into a schedule. She will need some give and take because she's human and uniquely made. I need more patience!

2. She grows more and more everyday. She's more alert and makes cute little faces.

3. I can take pictures of the silliest things. I freak out when she finds her fingers or thumb and tell stories all day about cute faces she has made or little noises she makes.

4. I didn't know a little person could have so much gas!!! She looks like she's in pain when it hits and then my heart breaks.

5. Personally, I do not believe that babies will always wake up when hungry and sleep when they need to. Maddy will eat and fall asleep in the process only to wake up 5 minutes later and be super fussy because she didn't eat enough. I have had to be very patient with her eating and let her take breaks to ensure full feedings.

6. That Maddy can teach me so much about forgiveness. I will be so frustrated with her not wanting to eat or her crying and then I pick her up and she gives me a big grin or she rubs her hand across my arm and instantly the frustration is gone and I feel so guilty.

7. Even girls can aim when they pee. Everyone said, "Oh, be happy that you have a girl. One time I was changing my little boys diaper and he peed on me." Well, we have joined that club. Maddy may not be a boy but she can pee mid-change and hit you straight on the chest or halfway across her pack-n-play.

8. That being spit up on and thrown up on maybe smell absolutely disgusting but breaks my heart for the little one who can't keep it down rather than for my 3 pairs of clothes sometimes a day that needs to be washed.

I love being a mom. Don't get me wrong, there are days when I want to quit but seeing her awaken from a nap her look at me or respond to my voice makes it all worth it.